valentine's day was a day like any other day.  sean and i had said to each other that we're not doing anything for each other, so i wasn't really expecting anything.  and we were planning on cooking a nice dinner for ourselves and celebrating the day after.  but i was still disappointed.

facebook status messages didn't help either.  so-and-so was happy that it's valentine's day.  what's-her-face was in love with her boyfriend.  this other girl was so lucky to have such a wonderful husband.

i felt all these things about sean, too, but not specifically because of valentine's day.  i know it's bad, but i was a bit sad about not actually doing anything on valentine's day.

this girl came to work on thursday with a huge box of flowers that her boyfriend ordered for her from california.  she was so proud and showed it off to everyone in the lab.  we all ooh'd and aah'd, but i convinced myself that she was just trying to make everyone jealous of her, so i hated her just a little bit for that.

sean had to give a test to his class until 9:30 that night.  after work, i went straight to ulta just because i wanted to spend some money.  retail therapy, they call it.  i didn't think seeing sean before he went off to give his test was even a possibility, but as i was leaving ulta, he called and asked where i was.  "i'm coming home.  when do you need to go back to school?"  he told me to come home as soon as possible because he wanted to see me before he had to leave for the test.  so i sped home.

as i parked my car in front of our apartment, i saw the door crack open and sean peak through.  then when i got out of the car, he disappeared back inside and slammed the door.  i walked up, giggling, and knocked on the door.  he opened the door again, and i saw...

a dozen roses.  i almost cried.  all this time, i was thinking he's just not romantic enough to even think of doing anything.

he had to leave, and while he was at school, i went to barnes & noble and got him a couple of golf magazines and a little box of godiva truffles.  i found a card that i'd been saving for him and wrote a nice little message in it.  and delivered everything to the room in which he was administering the exam.

3 years since we've met.  2 years since we've been married.
i love my husband.